stop worrying too much

I stumbled upon those words in the highest time of my life, which is recently. Lately, I have been worried sick about something I decided to be important. It is like a step that I should put all of my effort and prayers into. The thing is, I was scared. I was scared that I might misunderstand some certain instructions. I was scared of saying the words out loud because these people might not agree and ruined my whole plan. I was scared of the possibility that if I handled this recklessly, it might break, and nothing could fix it. What sickens me is that all of them were mere thoughts. Last week has been nothing more than my unhealthy worried thoughts skyrocketing towards the vast open sky. Birds kept staying perched on their nests, they did not want to fly and catch this vibe too. Clouds moved apart as they prefered to hang around somewhere else clear.

 I constantly felt on the edge of losing and there was nothing I could do to win this chance. One misstep, and “well, there goes the dream” :( I ate less than my usual portion because I could not get my head into the idea of feeling hungry, if that even made sense. Well, I was wrong about most of it. At first, I did try to make a roundabout and saw if it worked. That completely failed. My shortcut plan did not work like I wanted it to, but I grew fonder of something else (this is a story for another day, though). But it’s true, when you do not get what you want, you gain something else in return. I successfully annoyed everyone around me, my co-workers and my ex co-worker, about what the heck I should do. They gave me different opinions, but deep down I’ve always known that the only bridge for me to cross is by being truthful. So that was what I did.

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